1 mistake after another

Hello and welcome to my very first blog.  Never thought I would be able to share my life story; especially online.  Albeit, I thought it is the right time for me to do this.  I hate of the feelings of emptiness; depression, anxiety, impulsiveness (sex in my 20’s and 30’s, and now compulsive buying, and shoplifting, are only a few examples of my multiple mistakes);intense anger, or intense happiness;  lack of judgement when I have to make an important decision; and etcetera.  I wanted to create this blog in order to bring awareness concerning what is Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD); stop the stigma that even mental health professional have toward BPD patients/clients;  to increase the education and or specialization in Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT), of psychologists that help people with BPD, and ultimately to promote clinical research concerning the treatment for this disorder.  Anyway, prepare for this bumpy ride, where I will provide information, resources, very funny First blog postanecdotes, and support for fellow BPD’s.  If I can make one person to accept the BPD, seek treatment, and comply with it, I’ll be content.  ALO

I see a wavering light that promises to leave me in the dark.
I see a dog barking at the moon
With another figure that reminds me of myself.
I see more: I see that I did not find who I am or was.
I see more: I see that I am still lost.

Taken and modified from a song by Silvio Rodríguez

I apologize for being MIA

Since 2013, I have acquired a pattern of either being fine or so depressed I will not get out of bed for days.  Unfortunately, the depression phases get longer with time. I hate that about me, and don’t know how to manage it.   So, when you notice I have not posted anything for weeks, the above is the reason.

ALO